Disclaimer: This is not an exhaustive list of events, but just THE most monumental moments in the time buckets mentioned below:
Dec 2014- April 2015:
- I made a new friend in the gym. Lets call her Ms Sassy. It all started over black coffee, and to this date, she continues to be one of the most important friends I have. Our family members are also friends with each other now. We both take all the credit for this camaraderie.
- Got an interview call for an MBA course from one of the most prestigious B-schools in India. Did not crack it.
- Ended up accepting the MBA offer from a not very prestigious school. Almost did not want to join it- was hating myself for even considering it- but thanks to that gym friend of mine- she coaxed me everyday to not let go of the opportunity, lest I get “arrange” married and kill myself within a couple of years of getting married. Because #lifesucks.
May 2015- April 2016:
- Spent an year outside India, MBA-ing, travelling to places such as Dubai, Singapore, Malaysia, Sydeny, Melbourne. It was nice. Really nice. I was never at peace- not even for a moment. Always worried about my future, my career, and my life in general. But continued partying nonetheless. Because life is a party, right?
- The college was not all that bad – some professors were absolutely amazing. Met some good intelligent people. Some entrepreneurial folks.
- Became close friends with 4 people. We were 5 in total – 3 girls, 2 boys. Movie fanatics, superhero nerds, and Netflix addicts. 1 boy dated 1 girl in the group for 4 months. After they broke up, the same boy dated the other girl in the group for the remaining months- they both are married now. It was a weird time- how two women who were close friends agreed for the same guy to fuck them, while living in the same apartment 😀 😀 Still creepy. But all is well that ends well- marriage is good right.
May 2016- Jan 2017:
- Came to Mumbai to start my fresh new job post MBA. Good stuff.
- Travelled to Chile (Exotic alert!!), on a company paid business trip- my first trip across the Atlantic. I was very elated, a little proud, and wanted to get a tattoo to commemorate the trip. Did not happen.
- Smoked pot EVERYDAY. For 5 months. Weekdays- 2 Joints. Weekends- 4 to 5.
- Travelled a lot across Mumbai. In cabs. Local train has evaded me till date
- Became very close friends with my apartment-mate in Mumbai. She was a clinical psychologist and I opened up to her like I had never opened up to anyone else. Afterall I was not one of those rape, hallucination or schizophrenia cases she dealt with everyday.
- She herself suffered from acute depression, and was on medication for the same. Everytime she missed her medication for over a week, she would get weird fits of anger and scream at her boyfriend, blaming him for things that never happened. She would hallucinate and imagine things in her head and blackout. I saw it all happen in my apartment. I thought I would be able to help, but no- I ended being a victim of her rage (though she would apologise profusely later).
- GRAND break-up of a 5 year old relationship finally happened. It was long time coming and it was TERRIBLE mess. I was a mess. And I started falling into a vortex of depression. It was a disaster, a scary time.
- What did I do to compensate for it? TINDER :D. Tinder was good, in bits and pieces. I met so many men. Slept with a couple, love did not happen- even once. Some men were weird, some came too quick, some were bohhringg. Just a couple were actually intelligent and nice.
- Me and the depression stuck clinical psychologist fell out. She decided to block me from her phone, social media etc- because I had swiped right for a guy, whom the third apartment-mate had already met off Tinder and was madly in love with (the guy had vanished after a couple of nights and she was visibly depressed for many days after that). LOLOLOL. The psychologist banged her door on my face and said this is how one day I will steal her boyfriend and I cannot be trusted. Ummmm.
- All in all it was a bad bad bad time. I was doubting every single move I made. Every single decision I took. I was judging myself for meeting random men. Trying to figure out what is it that I am looking for- stability? companionship? or mere makeouts?I was the weakest, and the most broken in those times.
- Witnessed the first wedding in my close knit family. That shook me. I was scared if I would ever find that one person to settle down with.
Feb 2017- till date:
- Moved out of the aforementioned apartment. Left the freaky apartment-mates and freaky stories of that cursed bedroom of mine.
- A dear friend flew down from Delhi to Mumbai, and stayed with me for a couple of days. I broke down. Sobbed in front of her, and told her I was very very unhappy with my life. I wanted a partner. I wanted to love someone, and get loved in return. Pure uninhibited love. Maybe get married to this person whom I fall in love with. But I had no starting point.
- We went out dancing, she clicked a picture of me, made me create a profile on an Indian Matrimony website, and put that picture up.
- I got to talking to this one guy off this website on 9th of March
- Rest of the saga for another post- for now, I am getting married to this guy in February 2018. You are invited 😉